Skies in winter

Today seems just to be another day, yet the sky was that wonderful blue und bright that morning. The last time I remember sunshine was about October, I suppose ... I miss those brighter days.

The wonderful snow always seems to mean a grey sky which can't really fill my mind with joy these days. Looking at it, I am quite happy when the night returns and small lights try to lighten the Christmas time.

So, my mood can't be filled with Christmas feelings today. Except of that, I feel a lot better and think my health will be at 100% again on about Monday or Tuesday.

hydrangea

feeling totally ill and blue

Well,

Christmas feelings seem to be  missing today. I was a little upset about my boyfriend treating me in a kind of harsh way when I am ill and actually need someone who comforts me - because of a big headache I feel really really dizzy.

Cause of my illness my Christmas mood is all over today. Also, my favourite auntie announced she and her family won't be with us during Christmas days because she can't come over from London. Bad mood.

hugging, hydrangea

Yokoku! as place for my creative works

Hello,

I just wanted to tell you about Yokoku!, my blogger site which was originally created for manga preview. I Think I will update this also reagulary, but it will be the place for my creative works. I think about also publishing extracts from stories I've already published at animemanga and animexx.

Hope you'll like it!

P.S. I'll also publish my creative works at times here I hink, but mizo.iro is just about ideas and feelings in generell, so feel welcome to read about the results.
P.P.S. A great thankyou to Akiyama who cheered me up so much with his last comment.

Hugging you all, Hydrangea

feeling lost and getting old

Hey friends!

I'm feeling quite weird today, perhaps it's because cleo-chan wasn't there today and I seem to get ill.
Sometimes I feel so lost in my tiny little world (even though it isn't that little at all), that I want to reject everything around me: my friends, family, boyfriend. It is feeling that uneasy I'm not even able to write something properly that I could publish on animemanga or animexx even though I was in such a creative rush when I got home.
Getting older seems to be meaning to get lost because you have more and more to do, to work or something else, but as result you have less time for yourself, to relax, or especially for friends.
Missing you guys.
Hope you read this.

Hugs, hydrangea

my little list

Hello to everyone.

Well, Christmas time has come ...!
For me, Christmas is not only time of family and friends,
snow, having acup of tea and a book in my hands ...
It is also about lists.

Lists for Santa,
Lists, with christmas presents for freinds and family,
lists of what to reach next year,
lists of wishes what you want to achieve and you wish for.

So, here it goes, my little list:

- Going to karaoke with cleo-chan (!)
- trying to work more for my stories
- staying more cool and calm (may be good for health -.-)
- wishing fpr everybody's health
- many christmas presents
- a new big bookshelf
- writing my first harry potter-fanfiction!
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.
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Well, the list of christmas presents I will give to my friends this year will nit be published here ^.-

Hope you also have a good time!

In a happy Christmas mood, tokomi.

time out

Hello again.

Pausing on the field of love ... what to do? Maybe you still realized I was in a melancholic mood today, well, I had a strong fight with my boyfriend yesterday and now he wants to keep a little distance.
The topic discussed was our "holiday" we wanted a do in one week. Well, due to higher costs (because of the feather his mother wants to take the train now), and due to other circumstances, p.e. I am frightened that we will have to hang around at a station at night because the train will not be able to leave, he was driving all crazy and frightening me like it was in summer, except that it is now him who seems to need a break.
Friends, I am so down to the ground, yet I don't know if it was the right decision not to go with him - I think he really hoped for a good time down there, but because of the sudden change with the train the whole plan was changed and I said "no" due to this. I so wants to travel with him, but I'm not able to and he doesn't seem to understand this. Perhaps it was wrong and I know I behaved miserbly the last weeks ... still I hope it will not turn out that we'll totally break apart.

Little wishes,

tokomi with her head a in a miserable mood.