one piece left in the case of reincarnation, treason to me?

I know I haven't posted for a while.

How are you? Seeing Hikari posting again made me feel like it ^^ Well, I miss you Carriiieeeee !!! >.<

Well, even though I mentioned it in the last post, I am nearly reincarnated now ^^ nearly. What actually mean I still have got somewhat of feelings for my guy -.- even though I don't want to, I really really don't want to! Of course, I don't need him, but this doesn't mean as the same as saying I have no feelings for him ... You understand my problem? @.@

You know, when I look into his face, a chaos of feelings overcome me. Sometimes I'd wish he would have got another face back then when he started to keep the distance to me, then now there wouldn't be that problem I have now ... When I look into his face, I still remember everyhting he did to me, which means both the good and bad things, the very good one and they very bad ones. So you can say, I still have got feelings for him, after all, even though I hate him. But these feelings can't seem to eliminate the (kind of weird) feeling I have for him. Maybe that's also just the wish of being just friends with him again, even though we ARE friends again, which in reality means he does more than just say hello to me ...

My world shines brighter without that problem, without him not being near me. He's in Kansas City for one week now, yesterday they flew over to the US. It was one of my "brightest" days in school up until now ...! Well, one day doesn't prove anything, but if this does continue next week, I think the reason is clearly him! You know, I only think of him as a friend, somthing else would be treason to me!

Exept of this, I still have got the problem my mother is turtoring me when my father comes back home (sometimes he isn't at home for a week because of work)... I know she doesn't do this intentional, but she also doesn't do anyhitng to change that, which makes me kind of suffer.

I know Cleo will hate me for writing that stuff about my guy ... sometimes I have that weird feelings she keeps a distance to me these last days, since the day Greenie traveled to the US for a year. I know she doesn't understand me in the case of my guy. If she understood anyhitng wrong she should read this post now, I hope she got it now.

Hugging you all in these happy changing and awesome automn days. tokomi

glad being back

hey! ^^

well, I've got nearly just oe thing to say ... I am back ^^ *banzai* well, hope you like the new layout, but I will also change it more and more in time, but I was so tired of not writing with you guys ... *blush*

Well, recently I am over my guy now. Of course I think somewhat special of him, but I think that is because I was in love with him and had these feelings for him. Am I right ...? @.@
Also, I had some problems with my parents, they always make me down and that stuff. Today I couldn't stand it anymore and cried for nearly 1 hour ??? Well, normally I am more the type of person who's cold on the outside ... it was nearly one year ago I cried for the last time! So you can imagine.
Suggesttions what I should write about? Any wishies? ^^ maybe I'll sometimes post something imformative stuff, but up to now I think I will just post about life and conitnue one or three yokoku!s per month. You're okay with that? Carrie, did you write again @.@?

Weird and confused as always ^^ tokomi

meetings, birthdays and parents seem to be a 16-year-old girl's main problem

hey again, long time no "see" ^^

Well, I didn't post because there actually isn't much to post. Though I had a quite hard time with my parents because somewhat I'm sixteen now :3 and there thought of treeting me bad -.- I don't get it anyway ... Also, I could talk to my guy very much because he has an American exchange student staying with him till Sunday morning I suppose. This week really was hard, I missed talking to him >.< and then my parents screaming at me for nearly 2 hours ...
Though it was my birthday on monday, it was a hard week! My friends are coming over at saturday to celebrate my b-day so I think I'll recover and then everything will work out fine ^^ Maybe I'll post some photos then ^^
Also, because I missed my guy somuch I think I'll phone him on Sunday: asap talking to him again ^^ Also I think I'll maybe want to meet him once again ...? You think this is a good idea? Please give a comment.

*hugging you all*
@Hikari: You were so sad the last time ... everything okay again?
@Carrie: Everything okay with your parents? Do they do anything bas to you? *coming over and practising Tang-Soo-Do with them* ^^

EDIT: I just heared about it, but the new Edition of Kamikaze Kaito Jeanne (the one with just 6 volumes) is coming to Germany, this year!!! No.1 will be relaesed in september, continuing with every next month 1 manga!! *wahoo dancing* so the series will be finished in february 2009. Here you have a link with some informations about the current SDc-mangas and KKJ-Perfect Edition realesed in Japan:
http://www.s-manga.net/author/arina_tanemura.html Enjoy. ^^

Hope to hear from you asap, miss talking to you. ^^ *hug again*

16-year-old Tokomi

posting due to illness and problems

well, hey again!

Because everybody has summer vacations nothing seems to be happening -.- Well, I had some problems with my parents, we had a very big fight again.(@Carrie: I think you know it very well ^^)
I got ill -.- You know, when my parents shout at me that way they did (e.g. "you're just a nuissance") I am always getting ill -.-, beause after all, they are my parents and them shouting at me in this way is really hurting me ... ^^
Well, think I'll phone my guy this afternoon. Except of this nothing happend. Need to recover a little beause of my parents, hope to hear from you soon.

tokomi